make a change

here's the deal... Friday. it was a big deal. i will never be the same person i was when i first walked in those two sets of double doors. and when i walked out i knew there were some things i needed to change. so i started cleaning out my closet. by NO means am i perfect. but i have no intentions of going any deeper in the hole i had dug myself into. therefore when my friends that were there want to make a change, and when i try and inquire about how they are, and if they want to go to church with me on Sunday and they shuffle around the answer... it kind of irritates me. this life is not about whether you're going to make someone mad. it's about your relationship with God. and i just kind of came to that realization recently. it's not worth it. i'm clearly not eloquent about this. i'm just frustrated. but i guess i'm kind of preaching at myself because i shouldn't care that they don't act like they want to change as bad i want to... i'm just focused on me, right?

i shouldn't blog when i'm tired.